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Happiness

Do you know what brings you joy?

Do you know what makes you smile?

Do you know what gives you that energy to fully live your life?

Maybe if we didn't focus on the negative parts in our life, we could enjoy the good parts more. And therefor become more happy. Because those bad moments happens to everyone. Trust me, you're not alone having a rough time. Perhaps you lost something you've been fighting really hard to get, or maybe you feel as if nothing is going your way at the moment.

But if we just spend some minutes to sit down and try to come up with some things that makes you smile or that makes you feel good, then we can focus on those things and hopefully forget the bad things. Because why spend time going around being miserable when you instead could enjoy the life you are given?

Although you should not chase happiness, trying to come up with different methods to become happy. Happiness is something that comes to you in different ways. And one thing that makes you happy might not be the same for another person. So what im trying to say is that each and every person has a way to find happiness, and that sometimes we might forget those ways or reasons.

2011-08-09 @ 20:02:18 Permalink Self esteem Comments (0) Trackbacks ()

gain more energy

Sitting in school and studying for a chemistry exam we hae ve in a couple of days, and then when hearing a song on the radio I started thinking back on how my life was a year ago.

I was still in the IB program but my grade was very bad and I was really close to retake that year. you can say that I was tired on everything. scool, my friends, my hobbies- yeah everything. but finally i mad it and I could proced to IB1 (the second year in the IB program). during the summer I didnt nothing concidering school. and then I really mean NOTHING. I just took one day at the time. If i wanted to sleep to 12 o'clock i did that, if I wanted to go running I did that. I wasnt thinking about what I actually should be doing because I had nothing I SHOULD be doing.

The point of me telling you this is because I came to the conclusion that you have to take a break sometimes. since 8th grade I had been almost nothing but studying. I am not kidding! I was so focused on school. On my spare time I did not send time with friends :P I just read books.
in the beginning I thought it was fun and I got good grades. But studying so much made it boring after a while and thats when it started to get really bad.

But after taking that needed brake I was back on track and although I have to work twice as hard now to understand (without the background knowledge you got in the first year). but actually Im enjoying studying much again. But I have learned my lesson so now Im taking a break sometimes just doing what I enjoy doing.

For me it can be:
* spending time with my lovely animals

* going out for a run all by myself

* gathering my friends and just hang out :)

2011-03-01 @ 11:35:58 Permalink Self esteem Comments (1) Trackbacks ()

Please read..

when I saw this video I became really pissed of and angry. Mostly because I once were like that. I always compared myself to everone else. I felt that if I didnt have the same things as them, I was in some kind of way worse. Just because I wasnt as thin as "the cool kids" I was worth nothing. I changed my personality totally for them to like me. I loved school and I felt that I was really smart. But then I got to know that it was not cool to like school and to be good and getting good grades. So what did I do? I started to skip school, to party etc. You might think that what does she know about terrible things? Or, she is probably just writing this because she needs to do this. And no, I havent had anorexi or I havent been beaten, but I believe the things I have experienced is in its own way terrible because I changed myself and my personality. I even literally HATED my body, my voice, muy behaviour- everything just because I wasnt as "them". And no, I am not writing this only to get some CAS hours. I'm writing this because I doesnt want people to feel ansd behave as I did. And I didnt even need to to this blog. I could have done something else as for example painting. So please, take my words to your heart and understand that I really mean everything I am writing.

think of if this way, why change because someone called you fat or ugly? even if you would loose 100 kg or make a plastic surgery they wouldn't begin to like you. Because it is not something wrong with you. It is something wrong with them because they have to make other people feel bad so that they can feel good. So as I see it, they are the only losers.

Sure Im not the skinniest person today either but I have learned to listen to what I want and not to let me be controlled by anyone else. I love myself today and I won't let anyone take that from me. I love my body, every curve and why shouldnt I? And the more you love yourself, the easier will it be for others to love you, your personality and your body.

And you might argue that you want to change but you dont have someone to talk to. BULLSHIT! I hurted someone I love very deeply (will not tell who it is because I want him/her to be anonymous since this is post is very much about me and my feelings). I even hated him/her so much. I dont think you can grasp how evil I were. I moved away but after sometime I missed him/her extremly much. the only thing I had to do was to make one call and I got picked up. And he/she still cant trust me today because of what I did but I can go to him/her with anything, from love problems to moneyproblem.

So please! understand how beautiful everyone of you are. beauty is not one thing, its not a model for how everyone should look. Beauty is when you accept yourself and love yourself, thats when you become beautiful to me. because then you show me that you are not affected by the media and that you are smarter than so many people who are starving themselves to become some sceletons.

2011-02-02 @ 23:03:26 Permalink Self esteem Comments (0) Trackbacks ()